My grandfather was an alcoholic, damaged in the war
He sexually abused me as a 6-8 year old. I’m only now talking about it & freeing myself up from the shame. I am sad for my inner child, but relieved I can now release the shame & enjoy my life!
I remember his rancid breath, the scratching of his moustache, his hands on me
I was protecting my sister, that was my job. But I wanted to be clean. Why did I not tell my mum? Maybe I tried, but the shame suffocated my voice. What a path it’s been and I arrive at 53 in a life that I love. I’m not a survivor, I’m a thriver. Don’t call me a victim, that gives him the power. I won’t let him have any more of my life. The tears I cry are from long ago. They restore my faith in life and in things good.
I’m so loving my life, am freer than ever
I want others to know that shame is a fog that is unbearable and blinding. Little girls can’t speak the unspoken, it”s impossible to say it. So now I shout it. What happened isn’t ok. His wandering hands caused damage. But I am not me because of his actions, I am me in spite of them.
I’m free now – Anna
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